The Gothic Moon
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The Gothic Moon


In occult doctrine, ancient and medieval natural philosophy, and astrology, the Moon symbolizes the soul, the spirit, the unconscious mind and the unknown inner-self. Its shape, ever-changing, echoes the rhythm of nature in continuous patterns of growth, decay and rebirth. The Moon signifies change, transformation, and a light illuminating darkness.

The Moon’s message reflects the rising spirit of the Renaissance, a rebirth of ancient philosophy, art, and literature in Europe. The invention of the printing press in the 15th century brought forth a treasury of lost wisdom. Gothic influence was still present during the transition as manuscripts of medieval metaphysicians became books. Works by Albertus Magnus, Cornelius Agrippa and others, separated by time and place, are remarkably similar in magical themes. A typical Grimoire or "Black Book," so called for the Church condemned them, sought to arm the reader with vital information regarding celestial requirements in the performance of ceremonial magic. Details concerning the Moon were part of every sorcerer’s manual.

Burn willow wood in sacrifice to the spirit.

Powers of the Moon: policies, dreams, merchandise, travel by sea, lost love, theft.

Herbs of the Moon are chynostates (possibly clary sage) and martegon (moonwort) collected at full Moon.

Metal may be silver or platina (platinum).

Stones shall be pearl, crystal, spinel (balas ruby, a gem of pale rose red) or rose quartz.

Colors to be worn are white, cream, pale yellow.

Angels to address are Gabriel, Bilet, Missaln, and Abuzohar.

Talisman: Magic Square of the Moon, inscribe on parchment, use during conjuration of the spirit.

37 78 29 70 21 62 13 54 5
6 38 79 30 71 22 63 14 46
47 7 39 80 31 72 23 55 15
16 48 8 40 81 32 64 24 56
57 17 49 9 41 73 33 65 25
26 58 18 50 1 42 74 34 66
67 27 59 10 51 2 43 75 35
36 68 19 60 11 52 3 44 76
77 28 69 20 61 12 53 4 45

A magic square is an arrangement of numbers, none alike, placed in the form of a square where every row, column, and the two diagonals add up to the same sum. Of great antiquity, these devices were often engraved on metal or stone and worn as talismans. The renowned adept of ceremonial magic Cornelius Agrippa (1486-1535) constructed this magic square of the Moon.

When you’re feeling angry or depressed, a brisk walk can often ease the tension. Mental exercise can turn the trick as well. Add each of nine columns vertically, horizontally and diagonally in your head without resorting to pencil and paper. The total of each column is 369.

Making a talisman of this Magic Square of the 9th Order will calm and discipline your mind for psychic work at the dark-of-the- Moon. Patiently place the numbers in numerical order from 1 to 81 in their correct positions on heavy white paper in black ink. You’ll discover a series of patterns as you work which are fascinating in themselves.

No Idea
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I need to start moving a little faster with the divorce. His parents are telling him that he needs to get a divorce from me and tell me its over. So I'm waiting for them to give him an ultimatium "divorce me or get out". I wouldn't put it pass them.

I'm worried though. I'm worried that he is going to contest the divorce. I'm not sure how to get it filed without him contesting it. I need to talk to my mom and to someone that can give me some advice. Need to email Ryan again. He's a guy I go to school with that I actually like. If he doesn't know what to do he usually knows where to tell me to go.

I want to scream and pull my hair out.

Though that's nothing new here lately. Trying to sort through everything that was his and everything that was mine before our relationship and then deciding who gets what that is joint, well its more than a pain in the ass.

Why is it he won't listen and realize that its over. That there is no saving our marriage. There hasn't been a marriage there for 5 months. It was like we were just roommates.

I stopped something from happening that I knew would eventually ruin a great friendship. Sex tends to complicate things. Then comes in his religion. What happens if someone in his family finds out. I don't know what could happen. I'm not familiar with their standards of practice. Premarital sex is not an issue in my religion.

Khaos Faerie

I have no idea...
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I have no idea what to do. I know I need to move quickly on this divorce beffore I don't get what I want. My husband is driving me nuts. He is always whining about his family. He is telling me that he will get a job and get us a place. He has too much to do and not a lot of time. What he doesn't realize is he has no chance. I am filing for divorce.

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All the Holidays in One
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Isn't this the Truth. Santa isn't a man he's a bunny-turkey-deer that's also the Grim Reaper and shares Halloween with love and happiness with Easter because he is a bunny.

Day after Surgery 12/23
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Well the surgery went well. I went from a heart rate of mid-100's to mid-90's. All this means is it will have to be done again. I'm not sure when though. I know that I have a follow-up appointment with Dr. Hamdam on the 4th of January.

The thing is they didn't tell me about part of the procedure. I know that they were going in some way. They basically went in through the vein in your groin area and up. But they didn't tell me that the were also putting something in through my neck. My neck hurts worse than my groin area. I'm stiff. I think I sleep to much after the surgery because now its like 2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep again. Guess that is what happens when your body gets thrown off its normal sleep cycle.

I'm going to be doing some research about what the doctor did and some other things about my mental health status. I will be updating the journal on that very soon.

Blessings
Khaos Faerie

PS They forgot to give me pain killers.

Surgery 12/22
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I will be having surgery today (12/22/09) because there is no other option to slow down my heart rate. It is a four hour procedure in which they go in burn part of the heart that makes your heart rate go faster. There's one problem to this. They burn too much and I will have to low of a heart rate and will have to have a pacemaker put it. They also have a nerve to contend with that controls your breathing. So those were the major complications, then there is just the complications of surgery. I'm hoping this works but I am extremely nervous about going through with this. Too the point I am still awake and its 2:20am here and I have to be up at 4:30 to be up at the hospital by 6:30am.

LACUNA COIL - I Like It (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
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Its not so much the video that I like, its the lyrics to the song. Though I do like her outfit.

What am I doing?
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I am so badly torn. I remember all the things that my husband has put me through and I can stand him and want to kill him. But then I think I love him and miss him but I don't know if I really do. I have taken him back once before after his drinking binge. There's another part to this. I think I possibly have feelings for someone else. He has been a great friend to me and I don't want to lose that and I feel so free inside without mitch. This is why I wonder why did I start talking to him again? Why don't I see what's going to happen between ryan and me. (Sherman) those who know me know what that means. If u don't just ask and I can explain.
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Frustration
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Frustration.
Husband is frustrating me.
Animals, except for Khaos and Roofus (the two cats) are frustrating me.
I'm not sure what to do. I need to reschedule my appointment with my therapist. I feel and smacked my head the day I was supposed to have it. I couldn't go because of that. No one to take me. I can't drive after something like that.
Frustration, Frustrating, Annoying.
Doctor's who one minute tell you "Oh there are things we can do for your fast heart rate" and then say "Oh there's nothing we can do because its diabetic related fast heart rate". Ok make up your fucking mind and I WANT a second opinion. I'm looking for other cardiologists that take my insurance. Luckily I have found some that will. There's going to be my second opinion.
All of this is depressing me more and there's nothing that I can do about it.
My dog is whinning because its his bedtime. He's up way past it. Its an annoying whine.

No Idea
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I don't understand my mom stays with her husband. Supposedly he is only staying with him because we wouldn't be able to afford the rent. Which is true we wouldn't be able to. Especially now that my husband's checks are going to be short because he's in the hospital right now. Luckily he's not losing his job over this which was our biggest fear that he would. Now to deal with my husband's pain in the ass family and probation officer. She's a royal pain in the ass. Though her and his mother pretty much are bad.

Anyways back to my mom and her husband. Its bad when she has to sleep in my room in the afternoon just to get some sleep because he won't leave her alone at all. He was bitching and arguing about everything to the point he has her in tears. I'm not sure what to do about him and her but I try to stay out of it because she stays out of my marriage. We had that mutual unspoken argreement. but I can only take so much of his verbal abuse to her.

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